Bish Please>>>> You know you want to be in our Girl Gang!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Picture if you will, Black Velvet playing in the background, wine within reach and the immense feeling that you have to say something!!!!!!!!

Now envision trying to say something for over a week now.. and not being able to get out exactly what you wanted to say. I started writing on the plane ride home and here it is a week later

from Bish Bash and let’s just say my thoughts are still pouring in.  when I say thoughts I more mean emotions and all the gushy one

Let’s talk about moments. And when I say moments, I mean moments that changed your life.  hear me when I say MOMENTS.  THAT CHANGE your life.   

There comes a time when your life shifts from being all about you, to being all about how you make a Difference. 

Whether that’s in the eyes of your children, the heart and soul of your Spouse.  The reflection you shine to those who see you. 

The ones who really See you.  Not the person you think you are or have been. But the person that shines through the darkness and brightens those who need the light more.  I’ve never been comfortable hiding behind a

False image but damn it. I lied to myself for so long about who I really was. Why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m more aware of who I was born to be and it’s so Damn Freeing.  A weight has been lifted and I can fly through the static a much more confident and humbled women. A damn Good Woman to my Husband who has never loved me for less than all his has.  A Mother far

More epic then I could have ever imagined

 A friend with empathy and true compassion for those Damn Good Women.

I’m an effing phenomenal woman and I refused to be anything less than that. Now..... will I have bad days, like really bad and dark days. Hell yes, but will I be Better equipped to bounce back with my resilient Ass and triumph those lessons learned. 

You bet your Ass I will. I refuse to walk alone in my journey and not try to reach out to as many women as I can to change not only them but the world.I was so afraid to be my true self that I forgot who I was. I let my light dim. I allowed other to break me down, burn me with their words and steal my drum beat!!!!    

I want to break the mold, the boundaries, the walls within my own prison.  I want to extend my arms so wide that I can reach those desperate to crumble their own walls.  I want to hear your heart.

Hear you soul, hear your weakened whisper of freewill and destroy your dark shadows of insecurities.

Let’s talk music.  Music has always been an important aspect of my life and humanity. 

i have been able to get through so many struggles by listening to the words of those artists but in an empowering way....  the way we speak to ourselves or the way others speak words through us

I have always found a sense of peace in the lyrics of songs.  I can listen to all types of music for hours on end.

All songs have meaning, and comfort can be found within those notes. 

 I can usually turn on some music and find myself comforted in the word’s others have written.  Those words help remind me I’m not alone in my thoughts.  I’ve struggled in finding the real authentic me most of my life.  

I know it’s hard to believe but I’m truly an introvert that only became outgoing as I grew older.  In regard to how music helps us heal we must first acknowledge how all the words that have ever been thrown at us have cause a deep seeded doubt within ourselves.  

Think of all the horrible things we’ve said to ourselves so many times

i believe that most moments in life have a soundtrack.  Most people don't just listen to one genre' of music, but they in fact listen to music that feeds their soul during different moods or seasons throughout life.  

if you were to look back at any particular point in life where you were hurting you may have listened to dark depressing music, and to some that might seem... well depressing.  

hearing, however it may bring you comfort knowing you are not alone in your thoughts.  

i have added a few song lyrics in this blog to help you open your eyes to the words we really should be hearing and forget about the rest.  

i don't know about you but Florence Mary Leonine Welch.  she is pretty bad ass and she has this little band called Florence and the machine.  well if you have ever listened to her lyrics you might be surprised to know she is just like you, me and honestly all of us.  an Insecure  who knows deep down inside that she is more power and worth more than she gives herself credit for. 

Hunger  

At seventeen, I started to starve myself

I thought that love was a kind of emptiness

And at least I understood then the hunger I feltAnd I didn't have to call it loneliness

We all have a hunger

We all have a hunger

We all have a hunger

We all have a hunger

Tell me what you need, oh, you look so free

The way you use your body, baby, come on and work it for me

Don't let it get you down, you're the best thing I've seen

We never found the answer, but we knew one thing

We all have a hunger (we all have a hunger)(even full on soggy ass cabbage that Elise just can't get enough of)

Seriously, when i heard this song and then really listened to her words, i realized that we all in fact have a Hunger, whether that's fitting in, not feeling alone, not feeling good enough, whatever your reasons, we all have a Hunger for something we don't feel like we are every going to get.....

 I Call Bullshit, go out there and fulfill that Hunger You are Worth it.  OK So I'm sure the Majority of you don't know who Tyrone     Wells is but.... Damn you need to.  he is such an amazing singer songwriter and has an incredible way with words.  

i love this song he wrote about loving someone for exactly who they are and nothing more.  how great would it feel if we loved ourselves for being just us and nothing more. 

remember that you are Loved beyond words and you don't need anyone to tell you otherwise.           one of the most incredible take aways I've received from The Ladies Edge, 
is that it's not 
 about the workout.

it's about the community of women that have become family.

these women and Brad(My Person) have become my saving Grace.  I have been the kind of person to give and give and give and growing up i only cared to make other people smile. 

 i have found that this community is built upon the same foundation.  the women i have met, are truly one of kind, so caring, loving and Damn Good Women and Brad. 

I have been so overwhelmed by the amount of love i have received.  it's incredible to develop strong relationships from what some may call an Internet dating site for people who workout together. 

  blah blah blah, social media didn't build the relationships, it only brought us together.  I'm beyond grateful for our tremendous strong and fierce Leader Michelle Bishop                                                

Love Yourself for who you really Are, not for What you Wish You Were.

Inside Out- Tyrone Wells

No amount of makeup could ever take the place of your Heart.

Every time you wake up I

I want you just the way that you areI don't know, I don't know how you could get any bette

One look I'm shook babe, but that's not the hook, oh no
That's not what keeps us togetherIt's more than your body
It's more than the way you smile

All that you are
I love your from your inside out

there are day's when we wake up and don't want to get up.  there are day's that life feels so heavy and unbearable.  there are day's when we feel like the whole world is against us and we are drowning in our sorrows. 

too many times we find ourselves in a Rut.  we beat ourselves up for one reason or another.  but... why?????  why can't we see for ourselves that WE ARE ENOUGH, that WE CAN ACCOMPLISH ANYTHING, that we AREN'T DEFINED BY OUR WEIGHT, that we more than THE STONES THAT HAVE BEEN THROWN AT you


Rise again Tyrone Wells 

I can feel the ghost from my past still haunt me

Voices in my heading saying they don't want me
But I won't let the demons in the dark define me
I'm not caving in, I get up again

Cause we can't walk until we crawlWe can't run unless we fall
Did you know that we were born to fly
And you're gonna watch me rise again
You're gonna watch me rise again, yeah

You can keep knocking me down but

I don't belong on the ground, no
Out of the ashes and fire
I'm gonna keep climbing higher
Rise again

Bottom Line Ladies and Brad,  We are a Fighter,  we won't let the words, or thoughts or feelings define us.  NO MORE.  you've got this  Seriously YOU'VE GOT THIS!!!!!!!!!

Fighter -Tyrone Wells

When People try to take you low

Throwing words like sticks and stones
You just let it be
You don't make enemies

When you're headed for another crash landing
And everyone around you panics
You can do anything
You just spread your wings and
You are bold, you are brave
In the dark you are brighter

Lover, you're a fighter

Lover, you're a fighter
You are fierce, you're a force
You're a girl on fire
Lover, you're a fighter

Lover, you're a fighter 

  this Opportunity to share my heart with you all is such a tremendous relief. 

Bish Bash 2018 and 2019, The LIFER Retreat and all the amazing FaceTime calls, ext messages, emails and facebook love, has me KNOWING without a SHADOW of a DOUBT that I'm in the right place in my Life.  

I am so incredibly thankful that i have met so many incredible people and get to workout with them as well                           You're Wanted Here, You're Loved Here, Stay Here, Do it for You, Only You